Fall is playing games with my heart this year. Just when I thought things were finally cooling down, the weather decides to heat back up again to practically summer levels. I guess I shouldn’t complain too much though because it allowed me to wear something that would otherwise be a bit out of season.
One of the things I had planed for Halloween content this year was a series of closet cosplay and some vampire-inspired fashion. Unfortunately, the pandemic caused major delays in shipping and most of the items I bought actually wouldn’t make it to me in time for Spooky Season.
So my plans shifted a bit and I decided to still style some looks based on an entirely different theme – Disney! As a 90s kid, obviously I’m a major Disney fan, particularly of their animated features and I thought this would be a great way to have some fun with fashion and fandom. I challenged myself to style these two outfits with items I already own so I’ve made a point to include links to similar products just in case you wish to recreate either look this Halloween or just for cosplay at a later date. If you like these, be sure to head over to my IG for some more DIY Disney-inspired costumes/cosplay I’m sharing this week.
This first look is a recreation of a costume I once owned which is what inspired me to do this project to begin with. Snow White is one of the first Disney films I recall ever watching as a child and I loved it enough to ask my mother to get me the costume to wear when I was 5 years old. My father even organized a photo shoot session in our house, complete with a plain blanket backdrop, that year for me to model the costume. I remember just having so much fun being a princess for a day and wanting to look perfect.
This weekend, not only was I able to get brunch with two of my dearest friends after 8 months apart, but we also got to go pumpkin picking for the first time ever at a local farm. I love this time of year because the colder temperatures let me wear some of my favorite staples like my faux leather jackets but also because I get to eat pumpkin-flavored food. Yes, I know that is totally cliché but whatever, I love pumpkin.
Living in NYC during a pandemic has been interesting. Like I haven’t left my borough (Queens) except to pick up some things at the office back in May, making this the longest I’ve been away from the city (Manhattan) in years. My summers usually includes work and taking long walks in the city afterwards usually around the neighborhood. Usually this involves browsing at the local book store, if not the library, meeting my friends for dinner and a movie, going to a marketing/social media/blogger workshop or checking out some of the events advertised on Facebook, like the Japanese food festival I attended last summer. Obviously things were very different this year.
Thankfully even with COVID and quarantine, Summer 2020 was not cancelled as most of us had joked when the season first started. Sure, I stayed closer to home yet this turned out to be a little fun because I got to do things like ride a bike again for the first time in 14 years and read a book under a tree at a park my parents used to take me and brother when we were kids. So much nostalgia and not just in Queens because just this past weekend, my friend Diana and I made the trek to Roosevelt Island, our favorite hang out spot back when we were in college to see how much it has changed since we last visited.
As someone who has dealt with homeless twice before already, the very thought of unemployment has always been a major anxiety trigger for me. So I’ve become the kind of person that needs to have some sense of financial stability and control in order to hold my fears and anxiety in check. Financially, I am in a better place than how things were with my family back when I was a kid, however, like most people I know living in NYC, I still live paycheck to paycheck, which isn’t the most stress-reducing situation. Just missing one paycheck results in a financial setback that will take months to recover from.
So when I got the news in April that I was furloughed, I broke down and had one of the worst panic attacks ever. My mother, who is getting through lockdown along with me, didn’t know how to help but she tried her best to calm me down, embracing me until I stopped crying, shaking and hyperventilating. (My mother has never experienced me having a panic or anxiety attack firsthand and I know this scared her but I appreciate that this is how she chose to handle the situation in that moment because I managed to recover much faster than I would have otherwise.) I was unconsolable for days. I was angry at all those “we’re in this together” messages circulating everywhere. Yes, we’re facing the same storm that is COVID-19, BUT we’re all experiencing different journeys because we’re on different ships. Some of us aren’t even on ships at all, just doing the best with our inflatable life raft, if that.